sadness

Ever since, I find myself not the sentimental type. I do love romance films and openly embrace tragic endings without even have to sob for the entire day.Β But things do change when you get married and your man is one of the few in-demand persons at work.

Weeks ago when I knew that hubby will be traveling for a project transition work, I was totally weeping the whole night. Yes this may sound exaggerated to some, but hey won’t you feel the same too if you were told 2 days before the flight? I was shocked and super mad, but as much as he wants to decline he unfortunately cannot. He loves his job. So good thing, trip was cancelled due to time management issues. πŸ™‚ Days passed, and I still keep on thinking will hubby be ask to travel again or not? So I told hubby to confirm this to his boss so everyone (including me hehehe) won’t be furiously surprised. Apparently, neither his boss nor some colleagues know the status so hubby assumed he’s off the project. Come Friday, hubby was told to prepare because by Sunday afternoon (which is today) he’ll be going to do the transition work. Ha! Now it was hubby’s turn to get furiously surprised (believe me he was frequently nodding), this time I was in total calmness about it.

For 4 years of knowing Jeff, 2 years were spend on a long distance relationship basis. Seeing him over skype, sending long emails and enduring late night chats, which kinda gave me sense of independence on almost everything. But things changed when I decided to move here in China, my sense of independence is fading. Maybe it isΒ becauseΒ of theΒ overwhelming security I felt when hubby is around while trying to survive in a foreign country together. I promised myself not to cry since Jeff is way more sentimental than me and I don’t want to see him sad too. But when I saw him walking towards the taxi waving good-bye,Β lonelinessΒ just fills our small cozy apartment and made me realize it will just be me for 3 weeks, worst it could be more than that.

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